Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Here and Now.



She has been broken before. She was always a little broken inside. 
And she always found new ways to keep herself that way. 
She never trusted anyone,but still got hurt. 
But these days, the only person she does not trust,is herself.
And only because she has let herself trust someone completely.
It is strange,even insane. 
She had found tranquility in her distrust. 
It does not matter anymore. 
Getting hurt is second nature to her. 
The only thing that matters is that she has someone in her life,
who she expects to come back to her .
They may not get forever, 
but nobody gets forever. 
She has found you,
here and now. 
Someone she has been looking for her whole life. 
You have given her something no one else could. 
Faith. 
Faith that there is someone like you out there for someone like her. 
Faith that even if she doesn't get forever with you, 
she gets this much with you. 
She has been through enough to know that forever, 
is for fools. 
Here and now.
Is what matters.

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Escapism??!


"Forgive and forget..? Isn't that a form of Escapism ?", somebody asked me once. To be honest,not really... at least,not to me.Escapism can seem like a kind of a naive selective memory. A word for the act of cowardice.You messed up and you choose to runaway. But,I choose never to dwell too much on the past because it simply holds no interest to me.I have made a lot of mistakes and its my choice to look forward in spite of it all. 

People say that those who forget the past are condemned to repeat it. But isn't life a never ending rerun? We repeat ourselves. We fall, pick ourselves up. Sometimes, we fall into a deeper pit,but we climb a steeper mountain uphill. We enjoy the view from the Alta vista, but for how long?! Nobody gets to stay on top of the world forever. Sooner or later,you will have to comedown from there. And that is always gonna be downhill climb.

Forget the mountaineering analogy, Isn't life like a rubber ball? If it goes down, it has to come up. And if the rubber ball refuses to bounce back up after hitting the cold hard ground, hasn't it lost its purpose in life? Isn't it just plain useless now? But imagine the rubber ball forgets about hitting the ground, bruises and all, and decides to do what comes naturally after the fall.
If you have the strength at heart to grant yourself a clean slate, a slate free from mistakes and pains, you are giving yourself the courage to try new things. For a baby, a world is a fearless place. He is ready to take on anything and everything, he is ready to take the steps. He forgets the fact that he fell down so many times before. If he remembers those falls, and decides to crawl forever,would he be better off?

So, escapism might actually be a tool of propulsion. A way to grant yourself a clean slate,that can give you the courage to throw yourself into a projectile flight after a gut wrenching fall. So shouldn't escapism actually be considered as a good thing? A viable disposition?

Think about it: 
Why dwell on the trials and tribulations of the past,day after day when there is a better future laying ahead with endless  possibilities..?