Escapism??!

"Forgive and forget..? Isn't that a form of Escapism ?", somebody asked me once. To be honest,not really... at least,not to me.Escapism can seem like a kind of a naive selective memory. A word for the act of cowardice.You messed up and you choose to runaway. But,I choose never to dwell too much on the past because it simply holds no interest to me.I have made a lot of mistakes and its my choice to look forward in spite of it all. 

People say that those who forget the past are condemned to repeat it. But isn't life a never ending rerun? We repeat ourselves. We fall, pick ourselves up. Sometimes, we fall into a deeper pit,but we climb a steeper mountain uphill. We enjoy the view from the Alta vista, but for how long?! Nobody gets to stay on top of the world forever. Sooner or later,you will have to comedown from there. And that is always gonna be downhill climb.

Forget the mountaineering analogy, Isn't life like a rubber ball? If it goes down, it has to come up. And if the rubber ball refuses to bounce back up after hitting the cold hard ground, hasn't it lost its purpose in life? Isn't it just plain useless now? But imagine the rubber ball forgets about hitting the ground, bruises and all, and decides to do what comes naturally after the fall.
If you have the strength at heart to grant yourself a clean slate, a slate free from mistakes and pains, you are giving yourself the courage to try new things. For a baby, a world is a fearless place. He is ready to take on anything and everything, he is ready to take the steps. He forgets the fact that he fell down so many times before. If he remembers those falls, and decides to crawl forever,would he be better off?

So, escapism might actually be a tool of propulsion. A way to grant yourself a clean slate,that can give you the courage to throw yourself into a projectile flight after a gut wrenching fall. So shouldn't escapism actually be considered as a good thing? A viable disposition?

Think about it: 
Why dwell on the trials and tribulations of the past,day after day when there is a better future laying ahead with endless  possibilities..?

Choices Choices

This is such a cliche of a title,

But its too apt to be anything but..

I am too young to talk of anecdotes from my life,but with the experience I've had, I just realized that the human nature is to crave for things that is out of your hand. When you have a person in your life who you want with all your might,you think that all of the problems in your life will simply be solved by making that person realize just what they mean to you.But then,you get what you've always wanted.He loves you back..but by then,its too late.You have spend so much time finding little faults to that person who doesn't want you,that you slowly start to see all those things you thought were just excuses to make you feel better,you start to realize that all those reasons you listed out on why things couldn't workout between you two are in fact true, and your crazy dreams about how much better life could be better without them in your life,actually seems possible.
You have moved on,or you have moved onto dreaming about bigger and better things.You have realized that  you need to capable of being your own person,that you need to fall in love with yourself first..As soon as you start to realize your own self worth, he starts wanting you back too,but by then its too late and you have to make the choice of whether to stay with this person you "thought" was your world,or you have to let go and choose better things,you have to choose to make a world of your own.

And while writing all these things, I just realized what I need to do,since I am in this decision.

and here comes another cliche cliche..

I choose me... 

:)